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100%MiLK [Chinaberry Tree] says:
Wendy: *In a teenytinyquietvoice* "Do you want a bag?"
Me: "Yes please."
Wendy: *Slooowly gets bag and dumps it on the counter* "It's just that I know that sometimes you want a bag and sometimes you don't."
saintsfan@fsmail.net says:
....
OH MY GOD
100%MiLK [Chinaberry Tree] says:
FIRST OF ALL - I NEARLY ALWAYS WANT A BAG, I DEFINITELY ALWAYS DO WHEN I GO IN AT NIGHT, WHICH IS WHEN YOU ARE WORKING. IF THE CASHIER ASKS IF I WANT A BAG, I SAY YES. IF THEY DON'T ASK, I ASK FOR ONE.
AND YOU KNOW WHAT, WENDY, USUALLY THEY EVEN BAG MY ITEMS FOR ME AND I GIVE THEM A BIG SMILE.
saintsfan@fsmail.net says:
You should ask every customer if they want a bag anyway?
100%MiLK [Chinaberry Tree] says:
SECOND OF ALL - SO WHAT IF SOMETIMES I DID AND SOMETIMES I DIDN'T!? WHAT THE HELL!? DO YOUR JOB, WOMAN.
Seriously wtf is wrong with her!?
saintsfan@fsmail.net says:
she is utterly lost in the world.
100%MiLK [Chinaberry Tree] says:
>( Hatehersomuch. She finished off by calling me Anna.





Dear Wendy,
Knowing my Mother does not give you the right to address me by my old name which was legally changed over TWO YEARS AGO. Especially when said Mother told you ages ago that I am transgendered and am called Nathan. PLEASE STOP TALKING TO ME LIKE YOU KNOW ME, AND SAYING STUPID THINGS.
No love,
Nathan

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oVqp5M-jzk4 New vlooooog~

Latest vlog, 3 weeks on T - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=shtSnW0Vq40




And a mini-vlog, fuelled by Testosterone and illness -

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gK9_BOGIsMM

I'm getting really tired of my Dad.

He is constantly offering me/Adam lifts and saying that I'm stupid if I don't consider asking him for a lift somewhere, then when I DO ask he says no / tells me to fuck off / acts as though I'm being an utter bastard by asking. I never ask with an attitude, I'm always polite and grateful.

And just now, as I told Adam:

After a suggestion from my Mum earlier, despite me saying that it'd be out of his way -
Me: "Are you going to pick up Robert?"
Dad: "Yes."
Me: "If I come along, could you possibly stop off at the Co-Op?"
Dad: "Ugh, not really. Well. I suppose I can."
Me: "You can say 'no' if you want."
Dad: "Alright, no."
Me: "Okay fair enough." *Walking off back to my bedroom, no attitude or anything - just, y'know, fair enough*
Dad, now leaving: "Get your shoes on."
Me: "What? No, nevermind."
Dad, moments later: "What do you want?"
Me: "What? Nothing."
Dad: "WHAT DO YOU WANT?"
Me: "Nothing!"
Dad: "Fine, fucking go without."

At least it's not as bad as the fact that my Mother acts like a 6-year-old 90% of the time, throwing random tantrums and overreacting at every tiny thing, no matter how insignificant and unimportant it is. If I dare ask her anything about stuff (such as what she'd like me to do regarding the decorations, or ask her what she plans to do about something (politely and in a friendly way) after she has told me that she has plans) she throws a complete fit and screams and swears at me constantly. Then she acts like an angel whenever Adam or anyone else visits, and her lie of innocence makes me feel like a moron.



ETA:

Darky Hitori 7:59 pm
:C
I am in a really bad mood.
Every day I get shouted at by my Mum for no fucking reason and it's really driving me mental.
yellowsoapie 7:59 pm
why on earth does she do it? ;C
Darky Hitori 7:59 pm
As if I know.
Darky Hitori 8:03 pm
An example - earlier today, after tidying the living room after some exercise, I went upstairs and told my Mum that I'd tidied it so I was now free to put the chocolates on the tree like she wanted me to. But then my Dad mentioned the lights and said that they had to be sorted out first, and they just rambled aimlessly at each other about the lights without actually saying anything of any worth (such as, y'know, what they planned to do about the lights.)
So I said something like, "Okay, so are you going to sort out the lights?" And I got a sort of mumbled 'yes' as a response. Then my Mum said, "Go and do the tree for now." (Meaning, put the chocolates on.)
Puzzled, I said - "But the lights need sorting out first?" So she just started shouting and swearing at me the usual insulting, pointless, childish nonsense. So I said, "But you said that the lights need to be done first, so I can't put the chocolates on? Do you plan to do the lights?" and she just started screaming, "I DON'T FUCKING KNOW, FUCK OFF," etc.
Darky Hitori 8:05 pm
Now my Mum has just told me that my Dad will be going to the Co-Op, which she thinks is hilarious, because I wanted Dr. Pepper but I haven't given him any money and, "He was probably joking." It's not funny and it never comes across as joking, he clearly did not want to go to the Co-Op.
I fucking hate living here.
Darky Hitori 8:07 pm
("because I wanted Dr. Pepper" - she apparently told him that that is what I wanted. I also wanted to use my card to get cash back to pay them back for the stuff they picked up for me whilst they were out shopping (as they inexplicably hate me going shopping with them), and also buy more plain flour for baking.)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=--cMKu3fKnQ ;D Yay, new crappy quality vlog to mark week two on T~!

Going out alone with my Dad makes me realise how much I love him.

Dad: *Looking at earrings* "I want something a bit more.. Gay."
Me: "Like, a big sparkly penis?"
Dad: "I mean in the more, 'rambunctious and don't care' type of gay."
Me: "Sooo.. Not a big sparkly penis?"

I think that my Dad is an Honorary Gay Man, and I actually seem to have gotten a lot of my camp behaviour from him despite his heterosexuality. He used to act a little bit homophobic (not hateful) and insulting towards gay stereotypes and the like, but since coming to embrace my identity.. He has become much more open about expressing his feminine and camp side. (Well, he does flirt with everyone at his workplace, both male and female..)

He is always telling me about the gay men he talks to online. XD

I decided to do a photoshoot of Kojiro 'n' his gifts outside.

However, Honey had other plans...

I participated in a LittleFee Winter Swap on DoA, which is basically a Secret Santa for LittleFee owners.

I'm eagerly waiting for my partner to receive her gifts from me, and today.. I got my gifts!! ^___^

Despite the fact that I have been unwell and weak and exhausted and ugh since getting the Nebido injection... I am in an eternal state of, "Ohay, I'M ON T OH MY GOD OH MY GOD."

I still cannot get over it. My brain cannot grasp the concept that, yes, I am on Testosterone.

So surreal omg.

A new vlog~

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PSkuvMCd-9Y

I'll be attempting to do them every monday or so now, if anyone is interested in seeing me transition on Nebido. C:

The appointment was, basically (minus giving information on the NHS refusal and a couple of other little bits of chat) - "I would like you to prescribe me Nebido, and possibly also inject it?"
"Okay, I can do that for you!"

Bent over a chair in his office, got a needle in my arse... His chair was not the most comfortable thing to cling onto and the injection went on for like 40 seconds because it's so big and oily.

Unpleasant! But AMAZING. Very sore arse for a large portion of the day, but no matter~ Adam and I had a fun day in London afterwards. ^_^

My little boy is here, waking me up at 7:40AM when I wanted to be up at about 8:30AM. XD Now I have to rush as I have a very important appointment in London today, but now Kojiro will be going with me~

I currently have no photo-editing program so my photos have been resized in photobucket, plus there was only awful morning light - so apologies for terrible quality and any photos that are the wrong way around!

I am absolutely head-over-heels in love with the size and the body proportions.

Going to see Dr. Curtis tomorrow to get Nebido.







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http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QtgbtMDzldI

 New vlog, though awful quality.

Ten days 'til Testosterone~

Kojiro's jeans arrived yesterday and today his Hello Kitty top arrived! They're both really lovely and well-made, bought from sellers on Etsy. C:

Sorry for the rubbish photos. > .>

( Click to see the cutest stationary EVER )